I Go Back

As claustrophobic thoughts

schizophrenic hallucinations

engulf my mind and again

I go back

I go back to you

to those outstretched arms

which used to hold me still,

which used to guide me once.

I go back to that bed we once shared

to those golden days I still dream of.

But alas! You are no more with me

like a nightmare you left me

you left to share some other's passion

you left me to my hallucinating destiny

you left me to my lonely bed to share someone else’s.

But still I dream of you

I dream of our love, of our togetherness

Once that was a truth

Now just a past reality

once a lifetime,

now a tranquil memory.

I still dream of you in

my claustrophobic thoughts,

in my schizophrenic hallucinations.