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Staircase for Sale
by Gopi Chandroth (Non-Fiction Articles) | Published On: 05-Jan-2017

The house of my childhood has been demolished. The staircase, complete, is for sale. It is made of solid wood, of excellent quality. Someone said that one of us should buy it. Buy a staircase? The million times I ran up and down those stairs, chased by my sisters and brothers, running up to complain to father, running down for dinner. If I buy that staircase, with its brass fixtures and its knurled wood banisters, will I hear father coming down in his wooden clogs? See the emerald green of his eyes? Will my mother give me refuge from the persecuting siblings? I hear the gentle shuffle of her feet.

 

I see the deer-heads and their disproportionately beautiful antlers. The punkha and its pulley. The day I challenged God to place a bicycle in the punkha room by the next morning, as a condition for continuing to believe in Him. That very room where I permanently lost my faith when bleary eyed and sleepless, I ran in the next morning and saw no shiny new bicycle. The car shed with its deadly repair pit where I challenged the ghosts of Thiyerankunnu to either get me or leave me forever in peace. The poomukham where I learned Malayalam and Maths from a tuition master. 'Draw a loaf of bread,' he would say, 'now cut it diagonally in half.' I learned how to write Ma of Malayalam while learning about diagonals and the abstraction of three dimensional objects into their projections.

 

Where is the ghost of Madu gone? Still whimpering in the dark kalavara, now devoid of walls? I smell the mysterious under stairs pathayam with its grains and coconuts. Where, oh where, will those poor Gods go? Mahavishnu and his serpent bed; Siva in his resplendent leopard skin flaunting the menacing trident; Saraswati and her lute; Mahalakshmi and her lotus. Gods and ghosts, wander lost and un-tethered. No walls to hang from, no people to spook. I must house them before I am done with this story.

 

I can see the beads of perspiration on my dear aunt's forehead as she toiled with the smoking wood fire in the kitchen. I remember with fondness the young boy employed to look after me. He was only a few years older, but his wild stories enthralled us while the monsoon rains serenaded a magical lullaby outside. Fast forward some years to the machete wound one of us inflicted on his arm while he ground for dosa on the well-worn mortar and pestle. Granite stone turned to marble with decades of grinding. The beads of blood seeped out from the muscle just near his elbow. They looked like little dew drops on the grass. He looked murder, but exercised serious self-restraint for a hundred different reasons. One of them being the helpless poverty he would return to, had he retaliated.

 

Cricket, played with balls woven from coconut tree leaves and bats shaped from the base of the palm frond. Wickets of sticks, on laterite stone, blood-colour red dust mixing in with grazed knees and elbows. It was the evening after school and before dusk, almost every evening, before the sun set and the sisters emerged with oil lamps invoking the Gods. Having lost faith, I smirked silently and wished the dusk wouldn't interrupt the day which had potential for endless cricket. We had invented a new score, or rather adapted an existing one. It was a century if we could hit the ball over the gate and onto Thiyarankunnu. A full hundred, if one had the strength to hit that shot.

 

Was it not on such a cricketing evening that I saw my first white man? Botha van Ingen, coffee planter client, stepped out of his Austin, door held open by his driver. Emerging polished brown shoes, khaki trousers, white shirt, smoking pipe, khaki hat with a brown silk rim. We were frozen like still shots from an old documentary film. Father emerging from his office on to the portico and down to the car porch to meet his old friend and client. Botha's face, I had registered, was blood red. I hadn't seen a face like that ever. Redder than the hibiscus in our garden, and boy the Hibiscus was some red. As he passed me, he patted my head. The spell broke. Cricket continued.

 

I blush to remember the curious incident when I was caught fondling another under the piled law books? Indeed what about the law books and what about the law? What about those countless clients and peons and poor relatives who used to haunt the office space and its veranda? Or the discreet domestic messages that I took from mother to father as he lectured his clients on points of jurisprudence? The wooden floor upstairs resonating with the patter of children's feet. Father's political speeches echoing across town ricocheted in our ears as we prepared to sleep.

 

Deep and mysterious well, swallower of cricket balls, provider of sweet water, I see you still standing. You remember with me, the red tropical frog in the bathroom camouflaged as Lifebuoy soap. Smoke from the water-heating stove diffusing and scattering the weak light from a shade-less low wattage bulb. I grab the frog, mistaking it for soap, and it quickly jumps out of my hands, scratching my palms with little claws. I give you my story for safe keeping, for I know you will stand forever.

 

What to do? There is no fuss, there is no resentment. Only a hollow feeling that somehow the ghosts of my past are out in the streets. Where shall I confine them? How will I fill the void?

 

The problem has suggested the solution. I have now built a house in my mind and I have connected it to the well that still stands. All the little memories, the big fears, ghosts, spirits, and bicycle denying Gods now live there, happy and comfortable, in an ever-after sort of permanence. And, no, I don't need that staircase. This mind house has only one storey.

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Gopi Chandroth

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