Deceptive Serenity

There it is again.
I can feel it begin,
Deep inside my chest.

I feel my body tremble,
My insides rumble,
Vibrating my very core.

I can feel it move,
Rising upwards.
Blood pounding in my ears,
Tearing me apart inch by inch.

I go numb.
My mind in its grasp,
Bound in thorny tentacles.

I struggle to get free,
Fight to lose it.
I throw random thoughts in my head,
Each one ruthlessly crushed.

My eyes burn,
Threatening to erupt.
I look around in fear,
Someone must have realised by now,
Someone should have heard it,

The world’s moving on,
In blissful ignorance.

I can feel it searing my throat,
Pulling at my lips.
I fear I may lose.

But I don’t want to, I’m fighting on,
Refusing to let it break me,
Refusing to let it push me into depths unknown.

I shan’t surrender,
I shan’t give up.
My scream can never escape,
The ambit of my smile.