Envelope, Infinity, Delusion

Head bent low,

Eyes hidden

A moment to myself

Would mean taking off into the gold-tinged sky

And fly over the corner and away,

Away, blessed freedom!

But wretched be the human voices

Clamouring for a place in the cacophony

That pull me down and shut me up

In a forgotten room in the attic

Where the sunlight creeps in, I found an envelope.

"You whose soul and mine were one

In our garden of bliss, before life tore us apart,

Why do you claim the clouds kissed with tender fingers

Of the dying sun? 

Why do you listen for the whispering in the trees,

Are you waiting for the bubbling desires to subside?

Or rise with a roar, sweep away the cobwebs and broken fragments scattered on the floor

You are a child of mine. I was there too

Unsure, plagued by sad thoughts unbidden,

When I was sure nothing could ever happen to me,

Everything did.

And the doors opened up wider and wider than the skies and the oceans

This infinity of the universe, I give to you."

That envelope trembled with power

Creased with the love of my sweaty palms

That twin soul quieted 

Fiercest of my frightful storms

I loved her like I would love a man 

For his steady grasp, his dreamy trance

Was I clinging to a delusion all the time?

Whoever you were that spoke from the trees

Blew dust in a storm, raised me only to drag me down

Was I duelling with a shadow all along?

At the podium, when the ground shook,

Hearts thumped and cheers overtook

For me, I felt the years between us melt

And there you were, the touch that electrified me

But I think I forgot to say your name.