The Heinousness Of Mid 30's !

In the whirl world of fast pace hustle , are we loosing ourselves ?
Or are we trying to make the most of living by striving hard to survive?
These questions’ often lead us to loads of ambiguity and voidness.It leads almost to the core of seeking validation from the external world, and often failing to be judged by , forgetting that the answers lies within us.
We often find ourselves surrounded by choices which gives us triggers to better living.
But what is better living? How do we define it?
The answers are vague , for we never know the superlatives of Best and to limit the term . It’s a constant conflict of desires , aspirations versus reality . Need and urge to progress or for that matter proof to others forgetting that failure is a process and acceptance of failure is reality of survival. which again boils to external validations.
Its that dopamine surge which we are all seeking . Seeking for Nirvana
But what is Nirvana?(Quiet an elevated question which most of us are trying to figure out in lifetime)
To simplify -
Nirvana is a state of mind ,which helps one to strike a balance from noise \\\\\\\\chaos to acceptance. Accepting the self, limiting the possibilities with realistic expectation setting and surging towards living a better state of mind so that one can function a little upgraded than being a vegetable to trash.
However all this “Gyan”- Probably makes one a better orator to address a better crowd or make a better learned witty social butterfly but does it really make one a good implementer?
Who is an implementor? Or what is implementation?(Questions which often leads to Self Doubt)
Implementation – A real gothic term which again ponders and drains you back to your existence.It really hovers you to think are you doing things right ? are you making the most of your possibilities in making things work. Are people around you speaking about you in the right way?
But if we take a pause , and tune and rewire ourselves we can actually figure out that the Daemon is the mind and the thought which you are conflicting daily to proveis no one but your own self.
And as a result of proving and seeking validations , you are racing against time , actual need , aspirations and actual self. Internal self however is the one who is manifesting more powerful things and the universe is revolving around the same process but Alas Sanity is so rare a gem.
Its time we should scream to find and establish the Best versions of Individuals and if we can do that we can have lesser mental health issues and better world to live in.
The Belief system of “I can do it?” is stronger than any wisdom words which probably is ever spoken about .So are you thinking to have a date with your ownself to rewire thoughts?