30 Hours

Sorry for what you heard….
Though I dint mean in the wrong way….
And how so wrong…
I might even say…
That led to those
Dark thirty hours
Funny it is
As I wanted not to put you through - pain and hurt
So, I did What I did
But pain and hurt were all you had to go through
For all those thirty hours
It wasn’t easy for me either
Torn and dead inside
Full of guilt and repent
Only god knows how I resisted those temptations
To get back to you
In those thirty hours
Now I scream out loud
I was very wrong
I am sorry
I don’t know what I was thinking back then
I would rather lose my life
Then losing such a friend
In a matter of just thirty hours
I’m on my hands and on my knees
Tears forming and head lowered to the ground
For all those drops that you shed
In all those thirty hours
I thought I would stay firm
But I couldn’t
I broke down
And thank god I did
The maximum I could distance myself
From you were those thirty hours
I was afraid of ruining your relationship
Your happy and stable life
But the truth is
My feelings for you have grown
And I’ve learnt
To let them be on their own in those thirty hours